Reunions

Today was full of mixed feelings. Missy and I went to lunch with the group from our old office. It was so strange to see them all again. It had been about a year and a half since we had all last been together. Many things had happened in that time. Everyone had found new jobs (since the company closed), babies were born and we were all older. But it was also very bitter sweet.

I came to this company 3 months after Patrick died. I have to admit that the first 6 months of my employment there I was in a total fog. It was one of the hardest times in my life and the people there were my lifesavers. Missy worked there also and that helped a lot. It gave me a reason to get up in the morning. Something to face every day. Plus getting a paycheck was a necessity Especially since I was trying to recover from the bankruptcy. It was scary because other than working with Patrick, I had not had a job for almost 24 years. People aren't crazy about hiring someone who worked for their husband. They have a tendency to think that you kept your job by sleeping with the boss. Okay I did but I was also good at what I did. Anyway, because of Missy, they were willing to take a chance on me. I like to think I proved them right and gradually took over most of the office duties. I loved the people I worked with and they became more like family. I count each and everyone of them wonderful friends that I cherish dearly. Not at all like my job today.

The job I have today I got because I was qualified and capable of doing the work. They knew I could do the work and I proved them right by not only doing the job but taking on extra responsibilities. I also love the people I work with and look forward to going to work every morning but they are not my family. They are people that I work with and I enjoy their company. There is not the connection I had with the other company. When I leave work, I leave all that behind and go to my home and family.

So lunch was happy and sad. Very mixed emotions. I have to admit that it felt good to go back to my office and job. I've been there for almost a year and a half and I belong there. I'm very comfortable there.

Last night I got to visit with Serif. She is getting so big. She actually put her hand on my mouth and yelled at me. I believe she was telling me to be quiet. Can you believe that? Of course it worked.

Well that's it for now. I'm going to try to get up and exercise in the morning but no promises. It's been cool in the mornings lately and great sleeping weather. Since I'm not sick any more I really have no excuse but knowing me I'll find something.

Pleasant dreams.