My goodness. I knew I hadn't blogged for a while but I had no idea it had been so long.

Blogging is difficult for me. Basically I'm a very private person and it's hard to hang it out there for anyone to read. I've also never done well with journals or diaries. We'll see how this goes.

Yesterday was Mother's Day. I have to tell you it was a great day. Very relaxed and spent with family and friends. What more can you ask for?

Mother's Day is a special time for reflexion for me. It brings back memories of me as a child and my mother. My mother and I were not close until I was older. It was when I got older that I understood her so much better. She wanted so much for me. There was never any doubt that she loved me. But the person she wanted me to be was not the person I was meant to be. That in itself caused conflict.

My mother had a very hard childhood and that helped mold her into the person she became. With age came understanding of not only what she went through as a child but understanding of the person she became and why. When I became an adult, we were able to connect as equals and a friendship grew. I will always cherish that time we had and I miss her still.

It is totally different with my daughter. We have a deep closeness and friendship and that continues to grow. We think a lot alike and that can be scary. I feel for her poor husband some times. I cherish the friendship that we have built. I admire the woman and mother she has become.

Being a mother is hard. All you can do is do the best you can and pray. You give all you have and try to teach and prepare them for the life that awaits them. Hopefully they will be able to carry the love, morals and ethics that you worked hard to instill in them into their adult lives. If you do a good job, then your reward is becoming a grandmother and I do like being a grammy.

So I hope that everyone had a good Mother's Day. If your mother is living, I hope you were able to spend some special time with her. If you mother has died, then I hope you were able to take some quiet time to remember her and the times you had together.